And here we go again…

I’ve gained ALOT of weight the last months, because of a bad attitude from my side. I need to focus now. I need to lose that weight again, and more! I need to lose 36 kgs, and hopefully more, but thats my goal for now. Actually, my first goal i 6 kgs, and then I’ll go from there 😉

Help me?! Motivate me?!

I miss summer!! ❤ I’m really looking forward to this summer, I just hope I can lose some weight before that^^ Besides, I ove away this summer…I’m moving to another city… Wow can’t wait!!! 🙂

Have a great morning, day, evening, night! xxx

And I’m back again!!

I’ve had some busy days….but I’m back for now…’s hard to deal with the real life when I live in dreams. I’ve lived with a friend for a while, and it’s hard…she’s like . . . . PERFECT! Thin! I love her body, and I hate looking in the mirror! Mia make me gain weight, and I hate her!! She makes me eat all the time….but when it comes to purging, I’m scared! I’ve had som many problems because of the purging. Alot of pain!! AND I haven’t been alone for one second, so it’s hard to hide both Ana and Mia from her…. I home atm, finally! When it comes to Ana-friends; yes please! I need somebody to talk to. I can’t take this all by my self. I’m so tired, I just wanna sleep and never wake up ever again!! This thing is killing me! But it’s easier this way then recovery! I can’t recover all by myself, and I don’t get any with that, so I give up and join the “dark side” of it! Take it or leave it! My choice 😉

It hurts everytime I see a thin, perfect girl. I’m dreaming of them, and my future. I wonder how it feels to be as thin as them! It must be wonderfull!!

Who wouldn't want a body like this??

 Ciao xxx

Day 1 of counting^^

Okay, today have been a stressfull day, really!! Lots to do, and I’m really tired right now.. 😮 Well, I’ve been counting kcals today. Feels good, and awfull at the same time… Cause at the end of the day, yhe number of kcals are really high :/ Hate it! I really have to do something about it. Really!!!

  • Yoghurt – 59 kcal
  • Nuddles – 270 kcal
  • A piece of choclate + a cookie – 195 kcal
  • Pasta and meat – 327 kcal

Total today is 851 kcal 😦 But hey, it’s not that bad though! I’ve just got started AND I haven’t purged today AT ALL!! 😉

Today’s thinspo: